{♥}I Still Love & Miss You. But I Have To Let Go Of You.{♥}

♥ Friday, November 27, 2009

hie, back to blogg again .

tis few dae weather damn badd arhh .

make me fall a sick again .

ytd when to wrk wid fever n headaches .

but after 12 plus msg boss told her i cant take it le .

than she say help me wrk half daes than shecame around 3 plus .

after tat i jiu leave le when n see doc waited 4 1 hrs than my turn to see .

after see finish take medicine n cab straight home n slp le .

wake up around 6 plus eat dinner n took my medicine n back to slp again till the next morning .

hais i still miss him alots, i will faster recover de (:

I am waiting for your return .

8:54 AM

♥ Friday, November 20, 2009

todae off dae again .
stayin at hme all dae .
cos ytd nitex had a fight wid my bro .
he use his legg to kick my head than kana bang on to the wall .
fcuking err lorx lots of blood bleed out .
somemore now my left side cheek swollen cant go out at all .
ytd 3 plus than slp, cos the blood stop liao than start again .
i hate my bro, i will nv talk to him again .
cos he is a damn fcukin bad bro i ever had .
shall updates till here continue wiid my blogshoppin .

I still loves n miss uu, no matter how uu hurt me, uu are still the person i loves most .

10:16 PM

♥

hais back to blog again .
got lots of things wanna tel him, but i dun noe how to speak to him .

To: Desmond,
I'm sorry for everything i've done .
sometime i lie to you cause i didnt want you to be worried, and of course jealous or angry .
i'm stupid enough for not cherishing you, and regretted now .
I'm sorry that i used to place my friends before you .
I am really sorry about that . I felt guilty shouting at you, and showing attitude everytime .
I might be gf you ever had, but after so much of brainwashing from friends, i'm willing to change. Yes, you might not be able to see the result now, but sooner or later you will, provided we're still together .
Erm, thanks for being there when i need you, and for that couple rings too .
I missed you texting me those long and sweet messages which you aren't gonna do it anymore i suppose, or maybe i doesn't have a chance to see it anymore .
I missed your hugs, and kisses. And, i need your love .
Perhaps, we should really talk things out, and talk more .
And i'm more to an introvert. You should know if you don't ask, i won't say .
It heartache me seeing our relationship get ruin by me .
Blame it on my carelessness, my unconsciously act, and my fcuk up attitude .
And i admit, i don't usually show my love out and acted as if i don't care, but deep down in my heart, i actually care alot, and my love for you is ineffable .
And so i beg for your forgiveness ..I don't know what will happen next, i don't wish to know either.
If we're inseparable, we'll be back together in months later, or perhaps years if we really broke off ..

this is what i want to tell you all this while, but i don't have the courage to say .
maybe now i say all this also no use, course you won't return back to my side .

3:27 AM

♥

todae whole stay at home .

jus now 12 plus went tpy central wiid mummi, babii n bro .

around 2 plus jiu come back le .

cause little babii wanna slp, damn siian lorx .

when there is thing 4 me to do, i wont think of him .

but when there is nothing 4 mie to do, i dun noe why jus cant get him of from my brain . ):

maybe it's reali time to let go everything i've been holding on all this while . It's not worth .

even if my face put on smile, that doesnt mean i am living happily .

i jus have to put on a fake smile n show that i am still strong .

but everynitex b4 i slp i still will cry myself to slp .

i reali wish that this nightmare will faster end .

" A Fish Born Out Jiu Noe How To Swim No Nid To Be Teach "

12:56 AM

♥ Thursday, November 19, 2009

hais . it another dae past le .

our r/s come to the end alreadi .

is reali veri hard 4 me to accept this out of a sudden .

why am i so stupid to accept a r/s that has been broke in the past .

do i deserve this treat from uu i reali dun noe ???

everything has change, uu have change to another person that i dun noe .

i noe uu wont care much le, i oso noe in your heart i not longer important le .

now i got to concentrate on my wrk n dun wish to think much .

i oso wont be finding anymore bf le, cause in my heart uu still stand a place .

even though we break le i still miss uu n loves uu lyk the past .

but no matter how hard i try oso no use le cause your feeling is not longer there le .

i wont force uu to do anything at all, i wan uu to live happily that is my wish .

thks 4 everything in the past, i wont forget a single that uu have done .

my life still have continue on even w/o uu .

i will try to be strong n pass every single daes .

tmr is my off shall stay at home n dun feel lyk going anywhere . ):

I still miss him n love him .

8:37 AM

♥ Sunday, November 15, 2009

haish 2dae ish another dae 4 mie .

jus came back frm wrk .

my parents came to my wrk place n fetch mie hme .

we went to tpy lor 5 eatt supper after tatt head hme .

ii did msqq my bii bii ask him tink till hao lehh .

2daes alreadi the 2nd dae of waitinq 4 his ans .

im too scare tatt the ans ish nortt a verii qudd respond .

if we reali brkk up cos of jus tiis " sms twit here twit there ".

ii wont putt the blame on hiim .

cos ii noe tiis ish all my fault to make hiim so anqry .

our r/s has reali frm sweet turn to sour lehh .

everymoment, everysecond, everyminutes, everydays ii has been tinking of hiim .

butt ther ish onlin 1 photo ii cann refer to n see hiim .

ii reali dunno watt am ii qoin to do if he reali leave mie aqain .

maybe back to sinqle life bahh .

wont wanna to be hurtx aqain n continue wiid wrkinq life bahh .

shall write till bahh mie nw qoin to batth lehh .

n tmrr ii will habb his ans bahh .

hope he will see my bloqq n understand hao my feelin feel .

he ish the onlin quyy who understand mie the most .

ii tink ii reali didnt nortt treasure hiim bahh .

loves hiim wiid all my hearts .

I STILL LOVES DESMOND SOH ......

7:33 AM

♥ Friday, November 13, 2009

im backk to bloqq .

haish recently lots of tinq has happen .

mie n my bf dunno watt happen .

suddenly our r/s has turn into cold war .

ii alreadi try my best to qiib in lehh .

butt end up ii still scold by uu .

ii reali dunno watt uu wann ??

cann tel mie mahh .

ii reali dunno did ii make the riqht choice anot ???

ii trust uu n qave uu 1 chance .

end up uu hurtx mie back same as the 1st tymes .

am ii tatt 2pid to lett uu hurtx mie tymes n tymes aqain .

if urr feelin fade lehh cann tel mie de dunn hab to hide frm mir .

lyk tatt uu will make feel even more sad n hurtx

maybe urr feelin has alreadi fade lehh bahh .

ii wont force uu n hold uu back .

ii will lett uu qo while my tears kiip rollinq down .

our memoriies was a wonderful memoriies ii will alwaes rmber tatt .

thks 4 urr love n carin for the past few mtths .

ii reali appreicate it , its tymes to sae qudbye . 140809

Our m3mOriies

9:42 AM