todae whole stay at home .
jus now 12 plus went tpy central wiid mummi, babii n bro .
around 2 plus jiu come back le .
cause little babii wanna slp, damn siian lorx .
when there is thing 4 me to do, i wont think of him .
but when there is nothing 4 mie to do, i dun noe why jus cant get him of from my brain . ):
maybe it's reali time to let go everything i've been holding on all this while . It's not worth .
even if my face put on smile, that doesnt mean i am living happily .
i jus have to put on a fake smile n show that i am still strong .
but everynitex b4 i slp i still will cry myself to slp .
i reali wish that this nightmare will faster end .
" A Fish Born Out Jiu Noe How To Swim No Nid To Be Teach "